Schedules, and why I suck at keeping them.

On the 5th of February this year I made a decision. I would make a schedule for this blog, and I'm gonna keep it.

That worked out wonderfully, didn't it.
I kept it for a few weeks, and then stopped posting. Again.

Thing is, there is a reason why making a schedule seems like a big decision to me. What do I do if I fail to keep it once? Do I apologize in the next week? Do I feel too bad to write, and decide to do it next week, so I have a bit more to apologize about?

After this happened, my thought process continued, until my blog kinda disappeared and I rarely even thought of it anymore. I thought that, now I haven't kept it for three weeks, what does one more week matter? Or two? Or months?

So now I'm back, again shortly before NaNo, because that's the time to write. Fall is full of inspiration for me, and so I decided to just go for it. To just write again, cause I missed this. I missed blogging, and didn't even notice.

It's such a great way to vent, or tell stories, share adventures with the world, all knowing that only few people will ever even see it. It's fun, yet scary, to write something people I have never talked to can and will read. And in the end, the schedule was something I set up for myself, not for anybody else. I just shared it to be more inclined to keep it.

It was supposed to help me to blog more often and regularly, and ended up being my excuse not to. So the schedule, as it has been obvious by my lack of posts for months, is officially cancelled. I will still try to blog weekly, but I will no longer let it get me down if I don't. And I refuse to, ever again, let a missed schedule keep me from posting.

It was an experiment, and it failed. It's time to learn from it, and I think I did. However, I still think it was a good decision to try.